love-hate

I have a serious love-hate relationship with the NG tube.  It has it's benefits.  The biggest is allowing Lucy to get food without exerting much energy.  We all know Lucy started way behind in the size department and growing can be one of the most difficult things for heart babies.  As much as I want her to eat and drink on her own I have no doubt she would not be as big as she is without it.  At almost a year and a half she is eighteen and a half pounds.  Other benefits include feeding her while she sleeps (although we try hard not to), giving medication and keeping her hydrated if necessary.

But somehow, the hate overshadows it all.  Placing the tube and changing the dressing.  That's it.  That's the hate.  I can't tell you how much anxiety I get as we approach each thirty day mark to change the tube.  I dread it.  I procrastinate.  I make excuses to not pull out the tube.  And every time, Lucy does it for me.  Perfect example,  we are five days over our thirty day mark (it's okay, the nurses have said some parents change it every 90 days) and I am finding excuses.  We finish her night feeds, take a bath and are putting on pajamas when she throws up.  Her tube came partially out and I was able to push it back in, but another wave and the entire tube was out.

It was like Lucy saying 'oh no you don't, it's time to change it'.  Begrudgingly, I took the dressing off and got her back in the bath (cause there was puke everywhere).  We let her sleep tube free through the night, but not without snapping a few pictures.

We had her one month post surgery follow-up with cardiology a couple weeks ago.  Everything is looking good.  Her heart function is good, the aortic repair is healing nicely.  Her oxygen SAT have been in the low 90's.  We were given the go ahead to switch off Tolerex a week after the appointment.  At that time we switched from infant to pediatric formula and I can say it is nice not to have to mix formula anymore.  We go back in a month to check for chyle or any fluid in the chest and then we are hoping for a three month break.  That would put us into November, woo hoo.
I did ask about her third surgery and when we would start discussing scheduling and we got some more good news.  Dr. Husayni wants to give Lucy some time to heal from the last two surgeries.  We will be able to wait until she is three.  This means that we will have over a year and a half to be at home.

The biggest change coming out of this surgery was definitely her water consumption.  Lucy is now drinking on average 3 to 4 ounces of water and 2 ounces of milk by mouth.  We are working on a plan to systematically ween Lucy off her tube.  We have started by decreasing one of her four feeds by one ounce in hopes to promote more drinking by at the next meal.  It would be an amazing present to have Lucy tube free by Christmas.  This time around we are not pushing anything.
Surgery did set us back a month in terms of physical therapy.  We hoped to be walking by our next neurodevelopment clinic, but when she's ready she'll figure it out.  I am interested to see the evaluations of the therapists who haven't seen her for six months.
We will be there next week for the clinic.

Continued prayers for feeding progress and as always for her heart function.

In less than two weeks we are hosting the 2nd annual Have a Heart fundraiser on August 8th at Joe's Bar on Weed Street.  Please join us for a fun afternoon of drinking, raffles and silent auction.